Wicked

Last night, Tim and I went to see the musical Wicked. And let me just tell you...it was amazing! The voices were incredible and I LOVED the story! I cried many times during the show. It was difficult, as I thought it might be. I found my heart aching, longing to be up there with them, performing. I never feel more alive than when I'm on stage. I still doubt that I"ll ever "go back" to being a working/struggling actor. I don't think I can be the Mom I want to be...provide the home, the life for my kids that I want them to have if I go back. Between Tim's schedule, and a rehearsal schedule and performances, we'd never see each other. We see so little of each other now. Someday, we'll see...but for now I'm learning what it's like to be on the other side of the fence. Quieting my dreams...healing my aching heart...is a bit harder than I thought.