Some "Little Things"
(Shout out to Cowtown Stacy... how true that is!)
This week has marked a culmination of "little things" - that have in turn made an enormous impact on my life.
1) The casting director for Pippin (which Deaf West Theatre is putting on out here) called me with my audition time. It's this coming Tuesday at 4:30. I am beyond excited for this opportunity! I've dreamed of working with Deaf West theatre since I heard of them... about 16 years ago. AND this show will be performed at the MARK TAPER THEATRE here in LA.! Just for those of you who aren't from here, or in the theatre world, this is HUGE. I've been working on my songs and I just can't wait to perform!
2) I came to the realization that I am addicted to panic. I make mountains out of molehills. The "payoff" is that it gives me an excuse to be angry. So, I'm currently working on recognizing when I'm beginning to do this. Now, when I feel angry, I just think "Ugh. I'm angry!" Once I acknowledge it, the feelings tend to pass so much quicker. This realization is making a huge difference on how I feel, how my husband feels, and most importantly, how my kids feel.
3) I've been feeling sort of lost lately. As if I'm playing the role of "Kelley" but without substance. Being the "Kelley" people expect from me, and not being authentic. I realized my lack of confidence and self esteem stems from the story I created based on words and actions of kids some 22 years ago. So now, I'm just throwing that aside, and giving myself permission to just be the real me. (Yes, the old thoughts creep in, but not all the time.)
And a funny: Emma (who is loving kindergarten) has been singing all sorts of new songs she listens to at school. Yesterday, Tim and I asked her if she'd learned any new songs. Emma said that yes, Mrs. K had put on a .... a.... what are they called? Those big CDs that are black? Umm... Tim and I said, "a record?" YES! She put on a record that had .....
I was sort of sad, in a way. I remember my brother and I walking to the record store in the local Mall, sometimes pooling our allowances together to buy a new Kiss album. Our kids know CDs, and very soon, they'll think music comes only in the form of an MP3 file. That sound of the needle on vinyl is a sound of the past. The horrible feeling you got when you accidentally bumped the arm on the player causing the needle to scratch. The constant static in the background. Ah. There are certain musicians I still prefer to listen to on Vinyl. A young Nina Simone sounds so much better on vinyl.
This was a great week.
This week has marked a culmination of "little things" - that have in turn made an enormous impact on my life.
1) The casting director for Pippin (which Deaf West Theatre is putting on out here) called me with my audition time. It's this coming Tuesday at 4:30. I am beyond excited for this opportunity! I've dreamed of working with Deaf West theatre since I heard of them... about 16 years ago. AND this show will be performed at the MARK TAPER THEATRE here in LA.! Just for those of you who aren't from here, or in the theatre world, this is HUGE. I've been working on my songs and I just can't wait to perform!
2) I came to the realization that I am addicted to panic. I make mountains out of molehills. The "payoff" is that it gives me an excuse to be angry. So, I'm currently working on recognizing when I'm beginning to do this. Now, when I feel angry, I just think "Ugh. I'm angry!" Once I acknowledge it, the feelings tend to pass so much quicker. This realization is making a huge difference on how I feel, how my husband feels, and most importantly, how my kids feel.
3) I've been feeling sort of lost lately. As if I'm playing the role of "Kelley" but without substance. Being the "Kelley" people expect from me, and not being authentic. I realized my lack of confidence and self esteem stems from the story I created based on words and actions of kids some 22 years ago. So now, I'm just throwing that aside, and giving myself permission to just be the real me. (Yes, the old thoughts creep in, but not all the time.)
And a funny: Emma (who is loving kindergarten) has been singing all sorts of new songs she listens to at school. Yesterday, Tim and I asked her if she'd learned any new songs. Emma said that yes, Mrs. K had put on a .... a.... what are they called? Those big CDs that are black? Umm... Tim and I said, "a record?" YES! She put on a record that had .....
I was sort of sad, in a way. I remember my brother and I walking to the record store in the local Mall, sometimes pooling our allowances together to buy a new Kiss album. Our kids know CDs, and very soon, they'll think music comes only in the form of an MP3 file. That sound of the needle on vinyl is a sound of the past. The horrible feeling you got when you accidentally bumped the arm on the player causing the needle to scratch. The constant static in the background. Ah. There are certain musicians I still prefer to listen to on Vinyl. A young Nina Simone sounds so much better on vinyl.
This was a great week.
posted by Ramblings of a crazed SAHM at 3:15 PM
1 Comments:
aw Kelley, that's great! The power in Little Things begins with noticing them. You're on teh right track, my friend!! Congratulations on the audition call, and BEST OF LUCK TO YOU!!
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