I'm a total ass

What makes you feel like a horrible parent? Well, let me tell you about what I did. Playing "single parent" to a toddler in the throws of the terrible twos while getting crappy sleep does not make for a happy Mom. Theo had his 5th 45 minute temper tantrum of the week this morning and I just lost it. I've been so good at keeping my voice calm, relaxed, getting on his eye level and helping him calm down, but this morning....didn't happen. I screamed at him to "GOD DAMMIT! JUST STOP!" He froze, and looked up at me with the most petrified look on his cute, chubby little face. He was scared and wanted to go to me because he was scared, but couldn't go to me because I was the one who had scared him. Seeing that inner struggle in his eyes was horrible. I was dog shit on the bottom of a shoe.

I calmed down, and told him I was sorry. That I shouldn't have lost my temper. I told him I was frustrated. Yeah, he totally understood that. Ughh...

Tomorrow is another day.